16 May 2006 ;
Depression...
Recently, i am in a depression state whereby i cry almost everyday without a valid good reason, i don't know exactly why i am in a state of depression, maybe been thinking a lot about the past, present and future and with the 'help' of the external pressure that came from my recent Mid Year Exam. That is why if an exam ends early, i do not wish to go ome immediately become i till tend to think a lot that the next second, For all you know, i might be dropping tears again. Been thinking the past and present about my friends, family as well as my studies.For friends, is like i kept thinking that who is actually my enternal friends la, like can actually still can maintain a good friendship even after our secondary life. For my studies,it is because, this year is my 'O' levels, and i seems to sees it as my main priority. My mindset is that, I MUST DO WELL! I CANT AFFORD TO LOST! so i will study very hard this year, and i cannot afford to have bad result. For my family it is............... i better don't say it here because my bro might read and tell my family! For the past and future as well as the main cause why i am in a state of depression, i don't really want to share, hence it is best if i don't blog it down. When i am down, lots of people came forward and console me this and that, thanks a lot though it didn't really help me much, the one who did help me a bit is Willy, he told me that in the mids of adversities, i must stay positive.Every hurdle, problem, and test wants me down. I must stay strong. I must learn to find strength in friends, family, songs, books, nature, anything, i must keep my head up. Tomorrow is uncertain. Today is the best. Do my best everyday. That is why i tend to tell him some of my problem, somehow, it did helps me a little.There is also one person whom always disappointed me wiithout fail, it was from our school, the class besides our class, will read my blog. i think i already make it quite obvious. There are times when i really wants to tell him my true problem, but somehow, some kind of thoughts hold me back, then i will just give up that idea.Erm.. hope I don't let Willy down , i have already try my every best to use good English to blog and i have edit each of my blog though there are still errors. If there's still any error, please correct me. Thanks!PS:Don't ask me anything about my blog in school or when we are out together, Thanks! :)
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