10 May 2006 ;
Guilty? Regrets?
This is the first tIme i felt so guilty and having regrets dropping my A maths...just as i am typing now.. all of moi frenz are checking their A maths paper for careless...and i am here enjoying myself while they are suffering.. it seems like we are going to a new island together... but in the midst.. I have no more energy to move on.. and i just jump down the sea and drown....feel guilty towards myself tat i bu zheng qi! just drop like tat... feels guilty towards moi parents becox till now they still complain why I dropped...feels guilty towards my frenz...because I am not in the same boat as all of you....all of you says i am stupid that i just dropped even though result is an A...but won't it be better to drop because of stress now.. rather den after that i can't handle and might do something foolish.... From this incident... u all can see that i am someone who actually run away from the situation when there is a problem.... i am such a coward and irresponsible... For HMT is i am forced to drop because result was not good... Now tat I am left with only 6 subject... it is very crucial for o level... I might go to anywhere anytime after o lvl... anithing can happen....Guess u have also done something u have regreted too.. why not try to ammend it now when you stil have the chance...
following the beat;
9:48 AM
