20 July 2006 ;
wondering..
Haix.. wondering what has overwhelmed me recently..wonder does the source comes from the stress and pressure tat the sch is gibing me, or does it comes from family.. or it comes from moiself.. Everyday is just a routine for me, Wake up.. brush teeth.. showering.. changed to sch U den go to sch le.. after the sch at 1.30 we have extra lesson till 5.30! which is like spending most of the tyme is tat bloody sch! After school.. go home is either sleep or revision till 7 like tat... den watch tv till 10 which includes dinner and bathinng, den sleep le... I did lots of revision le.. i swear i did! but result somehow got poorer and poorer haix.. becox of all the sch and that bloody o lvl cert.. i have to work hard and i have changed a bit somehow..I have changed to be more and more dramatic in a way or another.. i learnt to have more expression le which s all the ugly expression.. i tink tat one of the way i reduce moi stress.. i sing lesser and lesser le... moi fuse is getting shorter and shorter too... I nvr care abt moi surrounding more le...health is getting poorer and poorer cox i got acute pain in lots of part of the body especially the heart(shhh.. i dun wanna c the doctor)...never care abt how i look too le.. haha hair nvr gel or wax de..i am getting more and more lazy too haha in a sense tat moi frenz cant stand me... Wondering wat happenin to me again today lo.. cried again haix.. lousy and weak me! i am fearful of moi exam and sch life le..even now.. i am revising moi physic.. i knew tat moi chinese cant make it le.. onli will be stuck at the B3 which i am realli disappointed by moiself... the first o lvl exam paper i took is chinese and oledi no hope le.. realli cant imagine other paper le haix..
following the beat;
10:26 PM
